30 Weeks-Babies are the size of cucumbers

How far along? 30 Weeks

Total weight gain: 19 lbs...not terrible for twins
Maternity clothes? Some
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: nonexistant...im so uncomfortable
Best moment this week: Feeling the babies kick
Miss Anything? sleep
Movement: yup!
Food cravings:blueberry pie
Anything making you queasy or sick: not eating
Gender: A boy and a girl
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: round ligament pains, frequent urination, backaches, acid reflux, trouble breathin, fatiue
Belly Button in or out? in...but its changing
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: ive been crying allll the time
Looking forward to: our next growth scan

Names!!!

We finally decided on names....we went with Colin Anthony and Lily Elizabeth.

I'm 30 weeks today but need to do my board still so I will post that asap!

My Baby Shower!!!

My Baby Shower was like 2 weeks ago and was absolutely amazing. We got sooo much stuff! Here are a few pics from it!

29 Weeks-Babies are the size of an acorn squash

John's Beer and Diaper Party

I threw John a surprise Beer and Diaper Party (A guy shower). Pretty much it was a guys only party that all of his friends came to a Buffalo Wild Wings.  Since this pregnancy has been about me, I wanted something to be about him. So it was to celebrate him becoming a Dad.  All the guys had to bring a pack of diapers with them.  This is a picture of John being surprised when we first comes in.

I missed taking a picture for 27 weeks!!!

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26 Weeks-Babies are the size of heads of lettuce

25 Weeks-Babies weigh about 1 1/2 lbs

24 Weeks-Babies are the size of Cantaloupes

Hurricane Sandy

Hi Everyone,

  I wanted to catch up but then we got hit hard with Hurricane Sandy and my computer went on the fritz so I'm 7 weeks behind on updating.  So here are pics from the last 7 weeks.  Thank you for continuing to follow even though I've been horrible about posting!

Heather

23 Weeks...Babies are the size of Grapefruits!!!

How far along? 23 Weeks

Total weight gain: 10 (I only update when I go to the dr really...so dont think I gained a massive amount in a week lol)
Maternity clothes? Some
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: bathroom breaks have taken over
Best moment this week: Feeling my babies kick
Miss Anything? alcohol
Movement: yup!
Food cravings:funel cake
Anything making you queasy or sick: not eating
Gender: A boy and a girl
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: round ligament pains, frequent urination, backaches
Belly Button in or out? in...but its changing
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: i randomly cry a lot lol
Looking forward to: my next dr appt

22 Weeks...Babies are the size of papayas!!!

21 Weeks...My 2 Pomegranates

How far along? 21 Weeks

Total weight gain: 7lbs (I only update when I go to the dr really...so dont think I gained a massive amount in a week lol)
Maternity clothes? Some
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: bathroom breaks have taken over
Best moment this week: Feeling my babies kick
Miss Anything? not this week
Movement: yup!
Food cravings: not really
Anything making you queasy or sick: not eating
Gender: A boy and a girl
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: round ligament pains, frequent urination, backaches
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: mixed emotions
Looking forward to: my sono tomorrow

20 Weeks!!! Its Officially a Boy & a Girl!!!

How far along? 20 Weeks

Total weight gain:7lbs (I only update when I go to the dr really...so dont think I gained a massive amount in a week lol)
Maternity clothes? some
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I get up to go to the bathroom like 4 times a night
Best moment this week: Finding out the official sex
Miss Anything? soda
Movement:  Felt my first kick!!!!
Food cravings: nah
Anything making you queasy or sick: When I get hungry
Gender: A boy and a girl
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: round ligament pains, frequent urination, back pain
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: emotional...anxiety
Looking forward to: my next sono

19 Weeks..Are They Girls or Boys???

18 Weeks...My Little Sweet Potatoes

Yes I know I spelled potatoes wrong lol...baby brain

Eeeekkk!!! I'm sorry!!!

Sorry everyone that I've been so awful with updating lately. We've just had a lot of family issues going on.  I'm going to post the pics from 18 &19 but I feel like I cant put the bottom update because I'm not sure of the answers but I can do it for week 20...so here goes...

17 Weeks-My Onions!

Keep in mind this was before I found out the sex so my answers may seem a little off!

How far along? 17 Weeks

Total weight gain: 3lbs (I only update when I go to the dr really...so dont think I gained a massive amount in a week lol)
Maternity clothes? yoga pants and so shirts
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: my hips are killing me!!!
Best moment this week: Knowing we'd be trying to see the sex next week (clearly this is behind lol)
Miss Anything? not this week
Movement:  I have some flutters
Food cravings: Strawberry Ice Cream (And I threw it up 10 min later)
Anything making you queasy or sick: The smell of eggs
Gender: Hopefully next week
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: round ligament pains, frequent urination, gas
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: emotional...v ery emotional
Looking forward to: Finding out the sex

We're having a BOY and a GIRL???

I have to get my 17 week pic off my phone still so I'll put that up tomorrow. Today I turned 18 weeks.  My best friends uncle does sonos so he very kindly took us in today and told us Baby A is definitely a boy and he is 90% sure Baby B is a girl!!!! I'm over the moon  in love!!! At first he thought both were boys but then he realized on Baby B he thinks he was looking at the umbilical cord bc it's so close!!!  Our next sono is the 20th so 15 more days!!!

On a crappy side of things I started not feeling good Monday night and then I was up all night with a sore throat. I went to the dr yesterday....turns out I have strep. I haven't had strep since I was little and I feel awful :(

I will update my 17 week picture tomorrow!!!

16 Weeks...My little Avocados

How far along? 16 Weeks

Total weight gain: 3lbs
Maternity clothes? yoga pants.
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. 
Best moment this week: I had my sono both babies are perfect but we couldnt tell the sex yet
Miss Anything? not this week
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: nothing new
Anything making you queasy or sick: Ribs
Gender: a few more weeks!
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: round ligament pains, frequent urination, acid reflux, gas
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: emotional....i cried at saved by the bell lol
Looking forward to: Finding out the sex

15 Weeks!!!

How far along? 15 Weeks

Total weight gain: 1.5lbs
Maternity clothes? yoga pants.
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. I'm up every few hours to go to the bathroom and I just can't get comfortable
Best moment this week: being a week closer to my next sono.
Miss Anything? we went to AC and everyone was drinking so I missed beer a little lol 
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: Strawberry Ice Cream
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nothing in particular
Gender: a few more weeks!
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: nausea, headaches, round ligament pains
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: I still feel tired and emotional all the time
Looking forward to: My appt next week

My Apologies!!!

I am soooo sorry for not updating....i will do it all now!!! I have so much to tell you!!!

15 Weeks!!!

I turned 15 weeks today...so I have two little oranges. My belly is getting hard which is definitely very exciting. I was pretty nauseous yesterday but it seems to be dying down a little.  And people say you exhausted in your 1st trimester but for some reason it has seen to sneak up on me in the 2nd trimester. I am soooooo tired. My doctors appt is in 13 days and I cant wait. I hope he does a sono and we can hopefully figure out what were having!

14 Weeks-The sweetest lemons you'll ever meet!!!

How far along? 14 Weeks

Total weight gain: 1.5lbs
Maternity clothes? yoga pants.
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. I'm up every few hours to go to the bathroom and I just can't get comfortable
Best moment this week: being a week closer to my next sono.
Miss Anything? my appetite 
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: Italian ices
Anything making you queasy or sick: randomly i'll think of food and start to feel sick. I'm hoping thats starting to wind down
Gender: a few more weeks!
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: nausea, headaches, round ligament pains
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: I still feel tired and emotional all the time
Looking forward to: my appt in 13 days...whos's counting right?

13 Weeks-My Little Peaches

How far along? 13 Weeks

Total weight gain: 0
Maternity clothes? not yet
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. I'm up every few hours to go to the bathroom and I just can't get comfortable
Best moment this week: seeing my 2 little sweetpeas at their sono
Miss Anything?  I really missed having a beer at the Yankee game
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: cheese fries
Anything making you queasy or sick: when I dont eat
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: nausea, vomiting, gas pains, headaches
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: weepy
Looking forward to:my belly gettin bgger

You're a Peach!!!

I'm at 13 weeks now!!!I went in for my 13 week sono and were supposed to hear the heartbeats on the doppler but we couldn't :( But I did get to see them on a sono so that made me feel better. We did find out that our down syndrome results came back negative which i was very happy about as well.  Now I head back at 17 weeks for my spina bifida test and I'm hoping we can find out the sex!!!

12 Weeks

How far along? 12 Weeks

Total weight gain: 0
Maternity clothes? nope
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. I'm up every few hours to go to the bathroom and I just can't get comfortable
Best moment this week: seeing my 2 little sweetpeas at their sono
Miss Anything?  not really
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: nothing crazy
Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken & meat...and then of course any time :)
Gender: a few more weeks!
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: nausea & constipation
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time:I cry a lot lol
Looking forward to: the next time I can go to the doctor

My little plums

Well, I officially hit the 12 week milestone yesterday.  We went in for our 12 week ultrascreen that tests for down syndrome yesterday.  My hubby couldn't go because of work so my Mom came.  Both babies looked perfect and had great heartbeats.  Baby A was squirming around and not cooperating one bit...I guess this kid is going to give me a run for my money :) Baby B was laying as nice as can be sucking their thumb.  The woman giving me the sonogram told me she wasn't a doctor but from what she saw she thought everything looked good. She said she doesn't know how my blood work will come out though.  So fingers crossed when we go to the doctors next week everything is a ok.  It was great having my Mom there...I think it made it really real for her.  She cried when she heard their heartbeats.  As we were leaving she gave me a gift bag and said now I can give this too you.  It was 2 super cute outfits.  I had told everyone not till I hit 12 weeks did I want anyone buying anything or giving me gifts. So last night my brother and his girlfriend gave me 2 outfits and 2 books as well.  We told the rest of our family last night and spilled the beans to the facebook world today.  Its so nerve wracking that everyone knows now. Last night I also asked my 2 brothers to be godfathers and my cousin to be a godmother.  I still have to ask my other friend.  Our next OB appt is in a week and thats when we get the results back and hear the babies hearts on the doppler.  I'm so excited.

11 Weeks

How far along? 11 Weeks

Total weight gain: 0
Maternity clothes? nope, not yet but I have a feeling at least maternity leggings are right around the corner.
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. I'm up every few hours to go to the bathroom and I just can't get comfortable
Best moment this week: seeing my 2 little sweetpeas at their sono
Miss Anything?   Soda. Its funny I was never a big soda drinker but have been dying for it since I got preggo
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: Strawberry Ice Cream with marshmallow topping and Cotton Candy...random I know
Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken & meat...and then of course any time :)
Gender: a few more weeks!
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: nausea, vomiting, acid reflux, headaches, & bloating
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: I'm very snippy lol
Looking forward to: my 12 week sono! I just want to see they're growing...see their heart beats, and know they're ok!

Limes Please

Well we finished up week 10 and officially hit week 11 today. And to kick off 11 weeks when I was at work I threw up so hard that I literally peed my pants....A LOT.  Needless to say I had to go home early.  Since yesterday I have had an awful headache that won't go away.  I'm laying here with a wet rag on my head as I speak. I can't wait for next week!!! A week from today we have our ultrascreen for down syndrome, but that also means I get to see my 2 little sweet peas...who are now the size of limes. I just can't wait to see there heartbeats and how they've grown...its definitely good for my sanity.  DH has to work so my Mom is coming with me, which is actually really exciting and cool.

10 Weeks

How far along? 10 Weeks

Total weight gain: 0.
Maternity clothes? nope, not yet
Stretch marks? none yet
Sleep: I have been very restless. I'm up every few hours to go to the bathroom and I just can't get comfortable
Best moment this week: seeing my 2 little sweetpeas at their sono
Miss Anything? Not really...I just wish I had more of an appetite. 
Movement: not yet
Food cravings: Funnel Cake & Potato Wedges from KFC
Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken & meat...and then of course any time :)
Gender: a few more weeks!
Labor Signs: No
Symptoms: nausea, vomiting, acid reflux, headaches, & cramping....all the fun stuff
Belly Button in or out? in
Wedding rings on or off? on
Happy or Moody most of the time: I've been really moody lately
Looking forward to: my 12 week sono! I just want to see they're growing...see their heart beats, and know they're ok!

I can almost see the finish line..

That is to the end of the first trimester. I've been meaning to write here alllll week but I keep having 50 million other things to do. I am 10 weeks 3 days today! I went in for my 10 week sono and the babies are still measuring 4 days behind but the doctor has assured me over and over that that as fine.  He said they look great and have great heartbeats. On the 25th (exactly 12 weeks), I have my ultrascreen, which will test for down syndrome.  But after I see the babies continued growth and heartbeats on that, we are going to spill the beans to the rest of our family and friends. Then on the 2nd (13 weeks 1 day), we go back to the OB and get our ultrascreen results and we get to hear their heartbeats on the doppler.  It will be  the first time dh hears them.  As for now, thankfully I dont have the severe constipation (I acutally had to do an enema last week....HORRIBLE) but I do have the nausea still.  I actually woke up at 2am and had it and its just finally starting to disappear...for now.  Acid reflux has shown up like 3 times, but it was only really bad once. But like I said a million times, I'll do whatever it takes.

2 Little Green Olives

Happy 9 Weeks to me!!! Today the babies are 9 weeks old and the size of green olives.  They have really grown a lot from the poppy seeds they were a few weeks ago!!! I'm excited to start week 9 because it means I am a mere 3 weeks away from the much anticipated 12 week mark. Next week at 10 weeks we go back to the OB for our 10 week appointment. I already have a 12 week ultrascreen for down syndrome set up for the 25th at exactly 12 weeks.  No matter how those results come back wouldn't change how we feel or would do about the babies but I would like to be prepared if something did come back bad. This morning I had a little heart failure. My 25-30lb King Charles sat on my stomach and thats what woke me up.  So now, of course, I've been worrying that he hurt the babies. Never a dull moment I'm always worrying.  I think I'll call the OB tomorrow and tell them just to hopefully ease my mind.

Nausea, Vomiting, Constipation...Oh My!

Well this is what week 8 brought for me. First my morning sickness...or what I like to call my anytime sickness kicked in. It was just nausea first but soon after the vomiting came. As of Saturday the very painful constipation has started but I would do it all a million times over for my little ones! The doctor had prescribed me Zofran for the nausea. I took one Sat because it as pretty bad and then I took one this morning as well.  A week from today we have our next sono!

8 weeks and counting

Yesterday we went for our 8 week sono (today we are 8 weeks 2 days).  The doctor said both babies look healthy and have strong heartbeats.  We go back in 2 weeks for our next appt.  I wish 12 weeks would be here so I could breathe a little easier.

Raspberries

Sorry its been like almost two weeks since I've written...life has been a little crazy. Well today we are officially 8 weeks and the babies are the size of raspberries.   Last Thursday we had our last fertility appt. It was so bitter sweet. It was nice to know we were progressing enough to continue on but I love that doctors office and I'm going to miss them.  But we were able to hear both of the babies heartbeats.  It was so surreal.  Its crazy to think I have  3 heartbeats inside of me right now.  The same day I also had my first OB appt.  He just pretty much sat us down and discussed everything. We were given a due date of February 6th but were also told they can come as early as 4 weeks prior...so from January 9th on...its go time. We have our 8 week sono tomorrow night and then we don't go back till 12 weeks.  We were definitely spoiled getting to go to the dr every week.  It was just nice to be reassured that everything was ok and get to see them and how they're growing.  So 4 weeks is going to be a long time for me.  The picture I'm posting is from last week's sono and I will post tomorrows ASAP....I promise. This week all started the dreaded morning sickness...which is pretty much anytime sickness...I mostly feel sick mid-day to night....like right now   I feel totally nauseous...blech!!! Thats all for now, I will update tomorrow!!!

What a CrAzY week...

So on Monday DH went to go give me my progesterone shot and noticed my butt was all red and raised.  So I called the RE the next morning and they asked me to come in. Apparently I have cellutitus which is a bacterial infection that can get really bad if not treated quick enough or on time.  So they put me on antibiotics and I have to do hot compresses 3 times a day. So Wednesday night was my last night of shots and I started suppositories.  Of course they're irritating me though lol.  We went in for our next sono this morning and now we were able to see both yolk sacs, both fetal poles, AND BOTH HEARTBEATS!!! We weren't expecting to see them so that was a pleasant surprise. The nurse said they were measuring 5 weeks 6 days even though I'm 6 weeks 2 days...so I immediately stressed but she said since its so early it's totally normally and they look great!!!

2 little sweetpeas

Here are my 2 little sweetpeas :)

2 for the price of 1???

Yesterday dh and I went for out  first u/s. I was soooo nervous because I was praying we would be able to see a gestational sac in the uterus like we were supposed to.  They did an internal and I was so relieved to hear from the nurse that she saw a beautiful gestational sac. Then....I coughed. The nurse all of a sudden was like ummm....and there's a second one. Dh and I were as shocked as you are.  We're having TWINS!!! They saw 2 gestational sacs and in sac a she could already see a yolk sac and said she thought she could start to see one in sac b.  I read you usually see the yolk sac's around 5 1/2 to 6 weeks, so I guess they're doing good.  We go in for our next u/s on Friday and she said by then we should be able to see our little sweet peas. She said they will look like tiny little tic tacs. I hope we can see the heartbeats but she said we can assume we won't see them to our sono the following week at 7 weeks. Then after that if everything is ok then we will be released to our OBGYN.

5 weeks and 1 day

Well yesterday I was officially 5 weeks pregnant. Woot Woot!!! I went in for my 4th beta today. My levels went up from 456 to 1185  :)  So that's definitely making me feel better.  When the nurse called today she actually said now we can do a sono, so I have my first sonograms scheduled for tomorrow morning at 9:30.  I'm happy dh can take the train into a different station so he can come.  I don't expected to see much tomorrow. We'll probably only be able to see the sac.  But that's something that will make me feel so much better.  Actually seeing the sac in the uterus where it belongs.  I'll update tomorrow and let you guys know how it goes!!!

3rd Beta

I went in for my 3rd beta yesterday...my levels went up from 152 to 456...woo hoo!!! So my numbers actually tripled!!!  I'm going in for my next beta on Thursday and I'm hoping for my first sono next week.  So far the only real symptoms I have a period like cramps and yawning alllll the time. Friday night and Saturday afternoon I got a quick sharp pain on my right side so naturally I assume the worst. I can't wait for my first sono because I need to assure myself this isn't ectopic or anything like that because since we all know I'm an online research freak I've been worried about my cramping (even though I read its normal) and the sharp pains and  since ectopic pregnancies are more common with IVF.  Then crazy me, we went to a wedding on Sunday night and for like 10-15 min I like danced around and of course then I worried that I did something because they tell you not  jump around or anything strenuous.  DH assured me I didn't jump around but being a crazy lady I worry. At least once I get the sono I can hopefully get the ectopic worry out of my mind.  Then its just the normal Mommy worries :)

BFP!!!!

I apologize for disappearing this past week or so.  I didn't know who was following my blog and I hadn't told some family members yet.  Last Saturday at 5dp5dt I got my first very faint positive on a FRER. On Tuesday my doctor did my beta because I told them I had a positive test and it came back as 69 and they did it 72 hours later and said it should double and it came back today as 152.  So right now I am cautiously pregnant.  I am still very nervous with the MTHFR and just miscarriage in general but I want to try to enjoy my pregnancy.  We are not officially announcing it to the rest of the family and friends till after my first trimester...so the end of July. And the people that do know...parents, siblings, some close friends I have already told that I don't want anyone to buy anything till then also.  I will continue to update you guys every step and thank you for your support.  I go in for my next blood work on Monday!!!

4dp5dt

Even though I've been home the past few days I've kinda been in another world. Today I'm 4dp5dt...I caved and tested with a cheapie from the $1 store this morning....so dumb...of course it was negative. Supposedly it was supposed to be fairly sensitive but who knows.  I've been getting AF like cramping here and there. I don't really know what it means if anything. Last night I actually had cramps the woke me up (I'm not quite sure if they woke me up or I woke up and had them lol) But aside from that its been in my back. Nothing crazy though. I had a really crappy sleep last night. Every hour I kept waking up and I don't know I just felt weird. I dont know why the past 2 days I've kinda just felt down in the dumps. I guess I'm just scared/nervous. I'm scared to be optomistic and have everything crushed. Idk. I've been talking to my little sweet peas everyday and praying every night. Even dh talks to them a few times a day.  He tells them to stick stick stick!!!

Transfer Day

Sorry it's been a few days, but I was on bed rest at my Mom's house after the transfer and I didn't have my comp there and its really annoying to type this all on your phone. Sooo Monday was my transfer and all went well. They transferred 2 blasts that the doctor said were perfect and they were actually already hatching!!! So i spent the next 2 days on bedrest...afraid to sneeze. Now the terrible 2 week wait has ensued. I had a doctor appt at my RE today to get a sono and bloodwork to see how many ovaries were doing. They said the fluid went down but my ovaries are still huge. So they want me to continue drinking gaterade, v8, and taking my medicine. I have to wait to see what they say later today about my bloodwork and what the doctor said about the sono and I guess I get my next instructions from there. So as of right now I'm 3dp5dt ( 3 days past 5 day transfer) and I should be getting my beta June 4th (11 days). I knowwwww I'll crack and test before then. I'm actually thinking about testing Sunday when I'm 6dp5dt (technically I'm like a day ahead because my eggs were hatching early. I have noticed people start getting their bfp at 5dp5dt so my fingers are crossed.

5 Day Transfer

So the doctor called back and they said I'm on for a 5 day transfer on Monday. I still have 12 little eggies!!! The said 9 of them are really good. 3 of them are 5 cell, 6 are 4 cell, 1 is 3 cell, 1 is 2pn, and 1 is compact.

Another Bump?

Well the doctors office called yesterday and 13 of the eggs fertilized nomrally...which is still a great number. Most of the pain has subsided. I'm a little crampy and I still have a little spotting but I can't seem to go number 2!!! I went in for my sono and bloodwork this morning because when the doctors office called me the other day they told me because he took out so many follies, he didn't want me to get OHSS. So they gave me a new medicine, they said no water, 1 glass of V8 a day and 6 glasses of gatorade a day. So when they did my sono they told me I have fluid around my ovaries and that they are both huge and are pretty much touching.  So they have to have my RE look at the sono and see what my blood work results are because this might effect my transfer.  I've been so bummed out all morning since I found this out. It just seems like there's always another bump in the road.

21 Little Eggies

So yesterday was my egg retrieval. I was in a lot of pain yesterday when I got home, so that's why I didn't write anything. They ended up getting 21 eggs!!! Now to just pray they were mature and fertilized. I'm waiting to hear back today to find out how many fertilized and tomorrow I will find out their grading. I took today off of work to relax because I'm still in a little pain. 48 hour bed rest is going to be hard for me because I can't sit still.

One Day Away

I had to go back into the Re's office this morning to get blood work to make sure the HCG shot was done correctly and it's in my system.  My Mom's husband who's a pharmacist actually did it for me. Poor guy lol. So now I'm just one day away...20 hours and 15 min to be exact. But who's counting?? I can't believe it is finally here.  I just hope they find a lot of eggs of good quality and that they fertilize.  I'll keep you updated tomorrow!!!

TRIGGER TONIGHT!!!

I had my 4th sono and bloodwork this morning and they told me my lining looked great and i had 17 good size follicles!!! The had said they would call me and let me know if I needed one more night of meds or if I would trigger tonight. Welllll I'm triggering tonight!!!! I have to take my trigger shot at 10 P.M. tonight.  Tomorrow i have to go back into the doctors for blood work just to confirm the trigger is  in my body and the shot was done correctly and then Wednesday morning I head in to have my egg retrieval done!!! The ER is at 9 A.M but we have to be there at 8 so John can give his sample, they can get me all ready, and of course so we can pay. I can't believe it's finally here. I hope I get a lot eggs and they all look great. I'm sooooo nervous and excited all at the same time!!! Eeeekkk!!!

Last Night of Stims???

So I went to the RE's today for my 3rd sono and bloodwork.  He said everything looked good (he didn't say how many follicles though). He said he wanted me to do one more night of meds (tonight), and I have to go back in tomorrow for another sono and some more bloodwork. He's hoping tonight will be my last night of meds, tomorrow I'll trigger, and then Wednesday I will be going in for my ER.  Fingers crossed.  I can't believe this is all happening!!!

2nd Stimulated Sono

Sono number 2 down!! I went in for my second stimulated sono yesterday.  They said they saw about 16 follicles.  My biggest was almost 13. My lining was 11.9. I was a little worried it was getting too thick (if thats possible? I've read conflicting things on this). But the nurse assured me that everything was looking great. The called me back later on in the day to tell me that my bloods came back ok and to stay on the same dosages of medicine. So I'm still on the 10 of Lurpon, 112.5 of Gonal F, and 1 vial of Menopur. I have to go back on Sunday for my 3rd sono. I'm supposed to weigh myself everyday to make sure I'm not over stimulating.  They said if you go up lik 3-5lbs to let me know. I was up a pound from yesterday so of course I had a mini panic attack that I'm starting to over stimulate.  I'm hoping since my next sono is on Mothers Day that it might bring me some good luck that I'll have a healthy little munchkin for Mothers Day next year. I can't believe my egg retrival is less then a week away and in less then a week and a half those eggies will be back in me.  Stick Eggies, Stick!!!

1st Stimulated Sono

Yesterday I had my first sonogram since I started my stims on Friday. I went in there with my normal million question and I don't know if the nurse was having a bad day or whatever by she seemed annoyed so I didn't ask too many questions about the sono. She said everything looked great. My lining is 7.7 (day 4 of stims but before i took stims for that day). I read once its over 7 its good. She said my largest follicle was 10.8 but that was good for the day I was on.  The ended up changing my meds because they said I have a lot of follicles and they dont want me to over stimulate. So the Lupron is the same.  They dropped the Gonal F from 150 to 112.5 and they started me on 1cc of Menopur. I think Menopur is just to mature the eggs. So I took that last night, tonight, and tomorrow night and then I go in for my next sono on Thursday morning. Hopefully my follies are growing nice and big (not too big lol) and I will be able to stop my stims on Sunday and hopefully trigger Monday!!! So crazy its here already. I have been freaking out a lot lately about my MTHFR. I keepy just feeling like folguard wont be enough but I asked again on Monday and they assured me I didn't need baby asprin or any other blood thiners. Plus on Saturday we got a bill from the Hospital saying we also owe another $1200 facility fee, which is due next week.  I have NO IDEA where we are going to pull this money from and that is completely stressing me. I'm praying so of DH's paid detail checks come in soon. Otherwise we are in BIG trouble.

Go Ahead!!!

The doctor's office called before and I got the go ahead to start my stims tomorrow!!! Woohoo!!! Then I head in for a sono on Monday morning.  I'm trying to take this all one day at a time. The next thing on my mind is hoping on Monday all my follies are looking good and growing!!! Of course for some reason today though my MTHFR is creeping into my mind.  I'm just worried that taking more folic acid isn't enough and I should be on baby asprin or something.  Even though I called my RE last week and he said I didn't need to be.  Obviously he knows what he is talking about I'm just so nervous to finally get my BFP and then miscarry. Even though I said above I'm going to take things day by day, let me emphasize that I'm going to TRY to do that. There's just so much to worry about...OHSS, not enough eggs at ER, not enough eggs fertilized, eggs that aren't great quality for transfer, then waiting for that BFP, and if I get it worrying about miscarrying. I'm just a worry machine and as much as I need to be positive, I think with all of those things that I'm allowed to be worried.

No Cysts!!! (Insert Happy Dance)

I went for my baseline sono and bloodwork this morning and no cysts!!!! woot woot!!! She said my lining looked great, just how they want it and then she took a look at my ovaries.  There were thankfully no cysts and there was 12 follicles on the left ovary and 10 on the right so a nice total of 22!!! So as of right now, I have to wait for the nurse from the doctors office to call and confirm that everything was ok with bloodwork...estrogen levels...etc and if it is I can start my stims tomorrow!! Woo hoo!!! As of right now I'll knock my lupron down from 20 to 10 and then I will be taking 150 of Gonal F. Then I will head in bright and early Monday morning for my first sonogram to see how those follicles are doing. I'm totally happy with the number. I really don't wany many more because I don't want to over stimulate. I just want these ones to GROW, GROW, GROW!!!

Fast Forward

Ok, so the doctor's office just called and asked if I can come in for my baseline tomorrow instead of Friday. One part of me is like thank God because I don't want to wait anymore and the other part of me made my nervousness and anxiety shoot through the roof. I'm so nervous what they're going to say. I had talked to them yesterday because I had a question about medicine and the nurse had told me if the cyst was still there then I wouldn't be able to start my stims. She said let me check your chart.  She said the first time they saw it it was 4cm...the second time it was 14mm...so it had shrunk like 75%.  She said with your period you got, it should be gone. I REALLY REALLY hope it is because I don't want to have to push stims back because that pushes everything else back. I'm sooooo nervous!!!! If I can start my stims im pretty sure it still wont be till Friday even though my baseline is tomorrow. Fingers crossed!!!

5 Days

Well I finally made it to the week of my baseline sonogram and bloodwork. Hopefully everything will go well and I can start my stims on Friday. AF finally left yesterday. 5 days is the longest period I've had in a while since clomid made it so short. Within 2 days I was usually done while I was on clomid. I hope since I've been off BC over a week and my period will be gone 5 days already hopefully all of my blood levels will be good.The only thing I'm a tad nervous about is this little cyst that just won't go away. But the doctor said last time he didnt think it would intefere so if it's still there I hope thats still the case. I'm excited that if I get to start my stims that from now until the transfer I should be keeping myself fairly busy with going to the doctor so hopefully it will go by quick I'm starting to get really nervous and scared overall though. I just want everything to work. I know being positive is so important but the thought of a BFN or miscarriage scares the crap out of me. I guess as far as the miscarriage I guess because of the PCOS and MTHFR that it just worries me more.

Thought this was too cute!!! (And true!!!)

One foot in front of the other...

So yesterday I went for my uterine mapping.  I had to have a full bladder...OMG, I thought I was going to die!!! The uterine mapping itself wasn't so bad, it was just really them taking some measurements.  The part that was the worst was the biopsy they had to take.  They did a biopsy of my lining just to make sure everything looked good. AF showed her face today. Which is good, because thats exactly what they wanted.  I really hope this is the last time I see her for 9 months!!! Now, I just have to wait 9 more days for my next doctor appt. DH and I were discussing tonight that its so crazy that they take your best eggs and your best sperm and with ICSI they actually insert the sperm and its possible that it still doesnt work.  Thats just crazy!!! I know I'm not even pregnant yet to worry but of course I just want that little bean to stay sticky and be healthy. I was in the store yesterday and I saw the cutest baby stuff. It made me so happy and sad all at the same time.  I want to be buying that stuff for my baby. Hopefully I'm merely a month away to actually having my baby :)

Making Moves

Well last night was my last night of BC. Its so great to be making moves and starting and finishing things. Finishing BC felt good because I was one step closer. DH went to the hospital where we are getting our retrival and transfer done and got his sperm frozen this morning, in case he can't "perform" the day of.  Tomorrow I head in for my uterine mapping (which is pretty much a mock transfer) and hopefully they can find some nice spots for my little eggies!!! My Aunt had messaged me before and asked me to give her a call. She wanted to let me know our church was doing a special mass on May 14th for couples suffering with infertility. They are doing a whole mass on it and then blessing each couple.  I thought that was really awesome because that should be a few days before our retrival and I also thought it was really cool because my Aunt and the rest of my family besides my parents and siblings don't even know we're doing IVF so they have no idea when our retrival is. So maybe that will be some good luck towards our procedure. So I'm still doing my Lupron shots. I actually had super intense anxiety over the weekend, like I haven't had in a long time. I'm wondering if its from the hormones in the shot or not. But I was a crazy lady the other night.  I really hope these shots don't have this constant effect on me for the entire month. I still feel my anxiousness lingering, but I'm trying not to think about it. 11 more days till I start my stims!!! I can't believe its so close!! And hopefully only like 23 more days until my retrival. I'm so excited and nervous all at once.  I said to my dh last night, its so crazy that when they put the embryos back in that they are actually little babies already...and such a big weight is them holding on and sticking. Its crazy that that is what will make or break everything. Then I just need that little sticky bean to keep sticking once they grab on. I am going to do everything human possible to stay healthy and give them everything they need :)

Lupron!!! Lupron!!!

So last night I started my Lupron shots...I was so nervous to give it to myself. It really was nothing. It was done in 2 seconds and didn't hurt a bit.  The anxiousness before hand was worse. Sunday I finish up my birth control. DH started his antibiotics last night to fight off any infections and Monday he is going to the lab to get his sperm frozen just in case he can't "perform" on the day of retrival. I spoke to the doctor about freezing the embryos and  they informed me it is not included in our 3 tries...we also get 3 frozen cycles, which means we will get 6 tries instead of 3...which is AMAZING!!! So dh and I are definitely going to try to figure out something so we can afford it.

I went to the doctors this morning for our sonohystogram and everything came back good. He said the cysts is still there but its so little he doesn't see it being a problem. Then we had our IVF class. DH and I learned how to do all the shots. All of my injectibles are being delivered today and we are picking up anything oral tonight. Soooo as of right now here are my following dates of things going on:

Today-Starting Lupron
4/22-Stop BC
4/26-Uterine Mapping
5/4-Baseline Sono and Bloodwork and possibly starting Stims if everything is a-ok.

They said we are looking for retrival somewhere around the 16/17/18 (Only a month away). Then they will decide on a 3-5 day transfer and then transfer and 2 weeks later I go in for my beta. So fingers crossed in a little over a month I'll be a mommy!!!

Only thing that was a little disheartening today was they said they were going to freeze the embryos and I wasnt aware how much that cost. Its another $1800...that I'm not sure we can cough up in a month.

In Shock

As I'm writing this the tears are streaming down my face. The doctors office just called me back. They approved the IVF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm in complete shock right now. And today was the last day they can do it that I could start this cycle. So tomorrow I am going for my sono, my IVF class, and I am starting my Lupron. So I will officially be doing my IVF in May!!! I will let you know how everything is going tomorrow!!!

Losing Sleep

 So I'm supposed to be having a Drs. appt. tomorrow for a sono and having the IVF class wed and starting my lupron shots. I had called the doctor friday and they still hadn't heard back from this medical director. So I called today to see if I was still keeping my appts. for this week and the woman told me the medical director has still not called them back. So they bumped my sono till wednesday and said if he gets the ok i can just got straight to the class after. I really really really just don't get it. My mom said to me today sometiems we forget we're not doctors only patients and I get this but it's just so aggrevating. So odds are I'm guessing I'm not going to be doing IVF in May as planned. But now it sucks like am I going to get to do it next month or is my husband going to have to get this surgery and I'm going to have to wait like a year. I had a complete and utter breakdown last night. I sobbed for like 2 hours till like 1 in the morning and then I had a massive anxiety attack that kept me up till like after 2. It was bad...really bad. The worst I've been in a long time. So needless to say I'm exhausted today. This is just all causing me to have zero motivation and I just want some answers. It's effecting my whole entire life right now. It's completely maddening.

Zero Self Control

Soooo i called the doctor (insert epic patience fail). she answered the phone and its the same lady i always deal with and I was like Hi Rochelle is Heather and before she could get another word in i was like im not calling for an update, and she started laughing and she was like you're too funny.  I was like I just wanted to let you know that I received the letter from the insurance company and I told her what it said and I said I didn't know if you needed it.  She said they hadnt received anything like that yet so fax it over to her.  She said the medical director over at GHI is only in on Tuesdays and Fridays.  So she said they are hoping for a call back from him today.  She said the doctor reviewed our charts again and still stands firrm on his decision that IVF is our  only option and he doesn't think the surgery will do anything.  She said I know GHI has gotten a lot stricter with there policies but it seems to the Dr. that this is your only option.  I said to her so do you think we are still in the running here and she said yes, i think you still have a shot.  She said hopefully I can call you back today with some good news.

So I'm trying not to get my hopes up but I really hope she does.  And at least I know that the doctor is only in on Tuesdays and Fridays that if I dont hear anything today they wont have an answer till Friday so I don't need to drive myself nuts wednesday and thursday

(Im)Patiently Waiting

Well first off I hope everyone had a great Holiday weekend.  Sadly, dh had to work yesterday..the joys of being a cop but my Mom did Easter breakfast early so we could all be together and then later on we went to my Aunt's for dinner. I have to say my allergies are killing me!! I think its a mixture of that and my sinus's.  Anyways....still havent heard anything from the RE yet.  I know as of Friday afternoon they still didn't know anything.  I'm going to try to wait till tomorrow to call them. The wait is killing me though. I'm hoping the call me (with good news) before I have to call them. I went to confession on Saturday and to church yesterday with the hopes of getting any help I can.  I think I need to get back into going to Church. So as soon as I find out something, you guys will.

Loss for Words

So yesterday I heard back from the RE's office that our insurance company denied our request for IVF.  Even though it's the only thing that is going to work for us. They denied it due to my husbands varicocele. The doctor said the varicocele is sooo small a surgery is not going to make a difference and in the end we will have to get IVF anyway, so they're just prolonging us having a baby. So after yesterday my doctor was supposed to be putting in a call to the medical director to see if he could get him to approve the denial. I'm hoping for some sort of Easter miracle...after all this is supposed to be one of the most miraculous weekends. Honestly I'm super scared right now...I spent most of yesterday curled up on the couch crying. I just want things to work out for once.  I had asked if I should stop taking my BC and they said not till we have any answer because if I stop taking it, I'll get my period and then if my doctor changes the medical directors mind I'll still have to wait an extra month anyway. I told myself I would wait till Monday or Tuesday to call the doctors office back but I'll be lucky if I last till Monday because it's been all I've been thinking about since they told me they were giving them a hard time on Tuesday.  I'm hoping before I call that they will call me with good news...sigh...the journey continues....